mEggIE_lYE

随着脚步走，

停下脚步想，

内心最深处，

压抑的心情，

狂妄的呐喊，

就在迷失中

另寻一片天

最初的梦想，

回到最原点

life is just like food

some1 prefer his/her life like coffee…bitter but tasty…

some1 choose to have a life like laksa…sometime spicy but also sour …

some1 choose to take sweets in whole life…living in tale ..

some1 choose all the foods to make sure they taste sweet, sour, bitter n spicy be4 they leave the world…

am i coward?am i too cruel?i just wan to be simple in everything…in relationship, family, and friends…i always ask myself…what i really want? Am i ask for too much? through my friend”s comment, they found out my blog n personal message always -ve..actually this was the way i can express my feeling..noone is perfect in this world…but …too many things hard to explain..only the right time,the answer will appear…that is better for me n others..i prefer to be a coward then hurt people again n again..

   I always think too much , need to plan everything be4 i do..so …i doing nth..

   Am i too picky?i scare to face something complicated..too many things i need to worry..for my studies, my financial, hostel..that was too much…..i dont like to think..y am i rational…i prefer let my brain blank…

   Just do what whever i like, no need bother other ppl feeling…y i mind too much…i know..face problem..i always mind what people think about me….am i strong in mentally?that is still a doubt..i cant give a exact answer..

   No one really can understand me..i am too tired to protect myself…is it so hard to get some1 really can count …

    y every1 so complicated…hypocric, faker..pretend they r the victim n try to get sympathy from others..i am lazy to face this kind of people ..althought they will teach us lesson but..too tired to face all this..

   I am waiting for a day..i can go to a place no one know me…then travel around the world..no need think too much things..n stay away from all the problems..

meg…:) stay cheers..

recently i heard many incident from friends and relative.i found tat guy really cant trust.some r selfish,some r ego,some r keep taking advantage n some can lie n pretend nth..once i put this message for my personal message..i got objection from guy.,they said not all guy the same n have to see who they r ..

well, had interview with guy n gal then found out nowadays not only guy cant trust but gal also..flashback the sad incident make me lost more confident on relationship …i had phobia although never had a date be4.maybe ppl will thought i am desperate but actually not..i cant find some1 really can always be my best listener n partner ,is it wrong? but now i think i lost hope on all this love stuff becoz it is scary n sad….

maybe some will said i think it in the -ve way but nowaday too many tragedy ad..i wish to warn some guy dont ever bluff becoz the gal maybe pretend dotn know n waiting for the chance to smack him…no 1 really understand me n i really give up on searching mr right… n the fact still there he is the predator but he also the 1 keep pretending to be inocent..make me wan to vomit ,man…sucks..sorry …i need to express my feeling n doesnt  mean i wan angry with guy just some conclusion with incident happen around me n friends n also relative..

meg…kampateh..forgot tis..n use time on studies better

    now is the 5 of july,all my friend went to study ad.some go local uni n some go private Uni,n me….still working in s’pore..some ppl said i seem havent planning for myself o wat..
    well,i want go to college but i havent register..i dont know what am i waiting for…friend who didnt get the offer from the local uni ,they already register for their studies..just me..still cant give a confirm answer..
    I feel i  think too much everytime when i do any decision.i have to think the advantage n disadvantages only i will only decide..
   I found tat my english is terrible n i think i need to improve it..after i go to work ,i feel tat there r too many things outside the world n not tat simple as i think..i learn a lot of thing from here..some experience of life,advice form auntie n uncle..CHANGE MY THINKING ,MIND N THE WAY WE TREAT PPL..last time how "great’ i thought i am..haha..after  I work,then i know i have to low profile n humble..our lives is still a long journey n we r the 1 will continue it ourselves no 1 can help..whenever u sucess o u face failure,u have to face it..we r already have to responsible on what we decide n done..we not longer a small kid  …
   long time didnt blogging ad..too many things need  to express…meg  feel tat when i back tpg,they all went to study ad….haih..i also scare cant keep in touch with old friend..scare lonely pulak..haha.think too much ad

meg..at sing 12.37pm..5/7/08

  Recently i feel like i cant understand myself ad…how…feel like myself very weird ad..haha..maybe tis is just temporary…hope so..
  i really need to read some books ad..if not..gonna mad soon..i always will think too much n feel like myself is getting worst than last time..i maybe not like last time ad…actually nth happen on me,just the feel like very moody …dont know y..
really have to change adl,from inside to outside ..it"s hard but hope i can
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if i change ar..sure funny..a quiet meggie…it is sure funny…until i cant imagine…
  blogging on 1.28am  s"pore

  Recently i will feel lonely,dont know y..maybe is becoz all the friends in my geng they date ad…Maybe it is becoz now i not in sch life n the life circle become small tat make me feel bored
  I have to think about my future n my career too after choosing the course i want to study..many things i have to decide n have to compare the good  n bad of the choice
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  should i try something i scare..should i face my phobia.should i consider something i never thin be4..many uncountable things is in my mind…should i..should i?
   Meggie always face tis situation n need some advice n some1 to guard me.. blur.n at foreign country n…

  This year is the first time i celebrate my new year in s"pore.the feeling is different n quite special..
  Yesterday i go chinatown ..wow..there is crowded with ppl..n the light there is very nice..well,i just have drink with hui sing n cn at mc…wahahah..
   After tat, we went to bugis .there have a guanyin temple at st waterloo ..tat is a famous temple in s"pore..u cant imagine a street is full with ppl prayer..wow..a very long queue just to pray guan yin..
  Then we go to have drink n eat biscuit at a restaurant ..just back home on 2 am,this is the 1st time i celebrate out of my hometown n go out so late..

   Chinese New Year is not same like we feel when we r still a small kid..last time feel fun when CNY is coming soon but now the feeling just like having a public holiday..really big difference !!!
   So just wish every1 having the best chinese new year n really enjoy it with ur heart!!GONG XI FA CAI…

    M3g –far from hometown..

      This is the 4th times i graduate. Everytime  I have different feeling n view..
      When i  graduate from nursery.I am wonder how my primary sch will be..Quite happy n wondering..
      When i graduate from primary sch,i have prepare to become mature student.
      When i graduate from form 5,i promise myself want to realise my ambition.
      When i gradute from form 6,feel like many things happen which not simple as i think be4 tat ..n feel tat my dreams now is far away from me.

       I will go to work soon..just finish exam,need to work soon,i need rest..but ..very confuse..i hate the feel after graduate seem like lost my direction again..
       i have to think whether continue study o work….whether i can get in U o  not..
many stuff have to think..everything seem like the road not taken,i have to make me choice wisely..many decision have to make..i really lazy to think it..BUT I NEED TO..
      maybe i am not mature enough..actually in foreign country ,19 years old teenage can do many things..they can be a millionare o they already create something which is amazing.but me…haih.. didnt give any contribution for the society..n …
     hope the choice i make is correct..hope so..hope i am the 1 buddha will blessing

     meg.".feeling..after..graduate

27-11-2007-28-11-2007 ECON WAR

   2day i finish my micro paper with 2 hours n 45 minutes ,wakaka,i didnt prepare well..so tat consider very "keng" adl..can vomit a few pages..but the result for sure…. DAMN BAD..

   2moro will have macro paper,now i am still on9 n blogging..so..dont know whether 2moro can vomit  a few pages o not..

   i am a loser n never prepare completely for everything so really stupid spend 2 years in form 6..i think i sure cant get in U adl..sorry ya ,my parent n my uncle ,aunt ..i cant make wat u all hope …really sorry becoz i never try my best..

   0n9..chatting..blogging..gaming…tat is wat i done.ridiculous!!!~~~~meg crapping while having econ WAR